Yin Yang

I have always been fascinated by the yin yang symbol. There is something in it that attracts me, and makes me pause the work i am doing, and notice it. Numerous thoughts occur in my mind and i can go on gazing it for hours together. I am still not able to figure out what makes me feel that its the most mysterious symbol ever.

I googled yin yang and got various meanings and definitions. The basic meaning is this: Yin is the black and yang is the white. Yin and yang are complementary to each other. Often they represent the two primal cosmic forces in the universe. Yin (moon) is the receptive, passive, cold female force. Yang (sun) is masculine- force, movement, heat. It represents the idealized harmony of these forces i.e., equilibrium in the universe.

My take on this symbol is different. Although i am referring to a different concept, i dont intend to disagree with the original definition and I am in no way want to comment negatively or change the real meaning. Below are only my views. The first thought i get when i look at it, is that, the yin, the black one, makes me think about those wicked people, but if you observe closely, u can see a white circle on the yin, which according to me means, every wicked person has a white side as well. There will be definitely certain things which will move his heart. And similarly, the yang, the white one, will have a dark side as well, which is represented by the small black circle.

Basically, if I may summarize, nothing and nobody is perfect. I am sure we all know this phrase, we all are aware that we are also sinners sometimes, but still we sit and judge about the other person's way of leading life. There is always a certain point in our lives which makes us say to ourselves that the other person is wrong and if i were in his/her place i would have handled better. "Everybody knows how the other person should lead their lives but knows nothing about their own."

The main mistake we do is that, instead of thinking more about ourselves, we tend to think a lot about others. We need to first balance our lives, stop giving judgements, and move on to improvise ourselves. How much ever we think we are the perfect ones or the better ones, there is always a dark side. Will the entire dark side turn completely into white I dont know but I hope it does one day.

Every person lives in grey shades, its up to us, whether we want to paint black to our grey to finally make it darker or whether we want to paint white to our grey and turn it into whiter.

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I = Indecisive, Impulsive, Idiot

Sometimes in life you make a decision only for the sake of the other person's happiness, you give up all your dreams, your hopes,your aspirations, and COMPROMISE with LIFE only because you think that life deserves your compromise. Its like you walk into a path, thinking its the right one, and all of a sudden, out of the blue, you realize that it was the wrong one.

After you have shown your impulsiveness, one fine day you sit and wonder whether life was worthy of your compromise, but you do know that its too late now, don't you? U have been smothered by the people in and around you. You are scared to death, you are close to getting beheaded but still, you walk and pull your life to reach for a nearby destination so that you can rest for a while and spend some time with yourself. You feel lonely even with the presence of special ones in your life. Is it that you are expecting more out of your life, or is it the question of compatibility.

You showed your indecisive nature, you waited for life to get adjusted to you, but ultimately when everything was out of your hands, you realized the fact that you in turn have to get adjusted to life.Ironically you don't even have time to repent for any decision of yours! How could you allow the situation to overtake you and dominate on you? Sit and draw the locus of your existence and i am sure it will be a null point.

At this moment, its time to show your idiotic nature, because there is no other go, except, to accept the way things are going on and be the dear old great person who sacrifices her dreams for the sake of those who don't even know how to love you. You wont even get the voice to yell at yourself nor a helping hand for the way you have handled life. Brace yourself for the coming days. And if you thought that the person i was addressing to, was myself, you have hit the bull's eye....

Raving thoughts

The road has come to an end,
Look around you, you see your stagnant footsteps,
Have you really paved a way for yourself?

Detours everywhere, had you made the right choice?
You were frenetic to choose the easiest path,
Illusioned you were, when you walked into it..

You foresaw the inevitable,
and hid yourself in your carapace,
Did the mirage deceive your eyes?

You freed yourself from the massacre,
stained you are, from your extinct life,
and still confounded in those horrid gallows....

Life is a Baseball game; Just gotta play it

My friends usually question me as to why i refer 'life' as 'baseball' game!! Well, this post is my answer for that question. For instance, i go to DD Road for shopping, on a busy Sunday evening. I park my vehicle and wait for my friends. I am sitting on my vehicle and listening to a beautiful song on my n73 headset. I'm in front of the Reebok showroom beside which there is a footpath book stall. The book seller looks longingly at my phone. I see the craving in his eyes for a good living. I avoid his eyes and start playing Sudoku on my phone. STRIKE ONE . I get turned off for a moment. I start feeling why life is so unfair. By this time, my friends arrive and i happily start my shopping spree.

After shopping for an hour, we get tired and start drinking a can of coke. We roam around doing window shopping. A handicapped beggar comes in front of us. He is helplessly begging, merely to earn a living. Although i don't encourage begging, i feel handicapped people lack the strength to work by themselves and hence get into begging. STRIKE TWO. Again life has proved, how biased it is.

I finish my shopping and we excitedly discuss about our clothes and what other good stuff we missed because of less budget. We all decide to go to a restaurant for dinner and as i am nearing my vehicle i shoot a glance at the bookseller. He is busy selling his books and the handicapped beggar is doing his job. They all seem to have got adjusted to their daily routine. I decide to forget about them and get onto my vehicle. We all are merrily chatting as we ride and stop at a signal. Hundreds of people start walking on the zebra crossing. Some are walking hastily, some slowly; some are busy in selling before the signal runs out, but the one common thing i see in ALMOST everyone of them, is the dream in their eyes, to strive hard for wealth. I believe that money isn't everything but can i deny the fact that one cannot lead life with insufficient money? STRIKE THREE. I am so distrait in my thoughts that i don't even see the green signal. After a few of them honk horns at me, i come back to this world, forget everything again and move on.

Looking at all these instances, in just a few hours i realize I've so much with me to thank god for. I learnt that i shouldn't sink if life throws a fastball at me. Instead of getting strikeout, i should whack the ball hard and make it a home run (speaking in Baseball terms!!). I agree we are all incapable to help these people but at least we can make our lives worthwhile by recognizing the happiness around us and making the very best use of god's gifts.......

My Stagnant Footsteps

8 years ago, life seemed completely perfect to me. I had a smile imprinted on my face. Everything i dreamt of, came alive. All my expectations were coming true. I was popular. I was intelligent, a dreamer, a singer, a painter and a flawless daughter. I always thought i was lucky. I seemed to have a blast in my own way. But all of a sudden, everything came to a standstill and till today the blemished life has never been better.

Dreams were shattered. Eyes always brimmed with tears, ears always listened to words which were not meant to be heard and my mind was always thinking as to what happened out of the blue. Everything around me were unforeseen. I became a worthless girl. I fell pretty low in my studies and talents. Life became very hard to live. I started losing people around me, and the sense of 'Was I a sinner' started to erupt. I wanted leave this world for all the things it did to me.

I felt i didn't deserve any of this. But i again built up courage. Fresh new dreams occupied my heart and i wanted to give a life to them. I went on the wrong path, took wrong steps and shattered my dreams with my own hands. The sinner inside me had won again.

I stopped anticipating for impractical dreams. I started to accept the reality and tried to become pragmatic. I became more and more spiritual and i finally found the 'reason' why I'd to go through all this, spiritually. I started believing in the phrase 'whatever happens, happens for a reason'.

Life seemed bright and afresh. I wanted to be alive. I wanted to start all over again. I desired to pull on each day with a sense of being alive. I seemed to have taken a rebirth. I am a changed person now. 20 years of experience have taught me a lot.. more than what I'd intended to learn.

All the past footsteps I took in my life are stagnant now and i don't even want to go near them. I want to rejuvenate myself and smile more often. I want to come out of all the unethical sights which i see everyday and make my life beautiful in my own way. I've started dreaming again. I want to recognize god's beautiful gifts given to me and in fact i've already recognized a few, although i feel there is a lot in store for me.

I am HaPpY

My Numero Uno Post :)

Incidentally, this is the third blog that I'm starting. The first two definitely deserve to go into the trash as they are good for nothing. But this time, i am looking forward to write a lot of my views and news about various of my favorite subjects and topics.

This blog will be all about my thinking and thoughts. I plan to be pretty open in writing about the situations i undergo in my day to day life. Hence the name 'A peek-a-boo into my thoughts'. I might sometimes be very enigmatic and mystical or very generous in revealing secretive information. Nevertheless, i hope to make sindhublog.blogspot.com interesting and amusing.

Lastly, Let me introduce myself. I am Sindhu residing in Mysore, Karnataka, India. I am studying Engineering under the branch Electronics and Communication. I am an amiable, free-spirited girl; impulsive and combative at times. I can be very emotional or a total nitwit every once in a while, however, i recover quite soon from life's setbacks. I'm promising myself for the nth time, that I'm going to update my blog as often as possible. In fact, i am so enthusiastic about updating my blog, that I've decided to write a 2nd post today itself. Yup, i can go a little overboard sometimes :) Cheerio!!!!