My Stagnant Footsteps

8 years ago, life seemed completely perfect to me. I had a smile imprinted on my face. Everything i dreamt of, came alive. All my expectations were coming true. I was popular. I was intelligent, a dreamer, a singer, a painter and a flawless daughter. I always thought i was lucky. I seemed to have a blast in my own way. But all of a sudden, everything came to a standstill and till today the blemished life has never been better.

Dreams were shattered. Eyes always brimmed with tears, ears always listened to words which were not meant to be heard and my mind was always thinking as to what happened out of the blue. Everything around me were unforeseen. I became a worthless girl. I fell pretty low in my studies and talents. Life became very hard to live. I started losing people around me, and the sense of 'Was I a sinner' started to erupt. I wanted leave this world for all the things it did to me.

I felt i didn't deserve any of this. But i again built up courage. Fresh new dreams occupied my heart and i wanted to give a life to them. I went on the wrong path, took wrong steps and shattered my dreams with my own hands. The sinner inside me had won again.

I stopped anticipating for impractical dreams. I started to accept the reality and tried to become pragmatic. I became more and more spiritual and i finally found the 'reason' why I'd to go through all this, spiritually. I started believing in the phrase 'whatever happens, happens for a reason'.

Life seemed bright and afresh. I wanted to be alive. I wanted to start all over again. I desired to pull on each day with a sense of being alive. I seemed to have taken a rebirth. I am a changed person now. 20 years of experience have taught me a lot.. more than what I'd intended to learn.

All the past footsteps I took in my life are stagnant now and i don't even want to go near them. I want to rejuvenate myself and smile more often. I want to come out of all the unethical sights which i see everyday and make my life beautiful in my own way. I've started dreaming again. I want to recognize god's beautiful gifts given to me and in fact i've already recognized a few, although i feel there is a lot in store for me.

I am HaPpY

My Numero Uno Post :)

Incidentally, this is the third blog that I'm starting. The first two definitely deserve to go into the trash as they are good for nothing. But this time, i am looking forward to write a lot of my views and news about various of my favorite subjects and topics.

This blog will be all about my thinking and thoughts. I plan to be pretty open in writing about the situations i undergo in my day to day life. Hence the name 'A peek-a-boo into my thoughts'. I might sometimes be very enigmatic and mystical or very generous in revealing secretive information. Nevertheless, i hope to make sindhublog.blogspot.com interesting and amusing.

Lastly, Let me introduce myself. I am Sindhu residing in Mysore, Karnataka, India. I am studying Engineering under the branch Electronics and Communication. I am an amiable, free-spirited girl; impulsive and combative at times. I can be very emotional or a total nitwit every once in a while, however, i recover quite soon from life's setbacks. I'm promising myself for the nth time, that I'm going to update my blog as often as possible. In fact, i am so enthusiastic about updating my blog, that I've decided to write a 2nd post today itself. Yup, i can go a little overboard sometimes :) Cheerio!!!!