Self Esteem and its Tag Along

I believe we are our biggest betrayers. We let our minds do the bashing all the time. One little misstep, and the mind makes us brood and replay it over and over. Diffidence, Low Self Esteem and Self Doubt were my constant companions, who became closer over the past couple of years especially. Thank you, because if you three hadn’t masked my inner self, I wouldn’t have been able to experience these ‘new’ unveiled feelings.

I must admit, I love it. I love that ‘I’ can bash my mind now. I want to knock it down completely one day.

So, how did this unveiling happen? Off late, I have become obsessed with growth. But, what after all is the ultimatum of evolvement? I am still vague about that answer. Isn’t it ironic that people, who are not even a little close to you, contribute to your growth, whereas the ones that ought to do come of no help at all! Or is it that growth is entirely up to us, our perseverance and perception?

Now that I am experiencing those never-before-had feelings (at least I hadn’t experienced them in the recent past), the manifestations have turned out to be entirely different. I find myself expressing differently.

Assertiveness is the main plug-in that wants to fasten itself to the prototype that is slowly getting ready.

There have been so many people who have made a difference to my life. Some of them don’t even know that they are in the list too! Yes, I do have one long list. How opportune it is! Who can get so many Wild Cards in life?

This Wild Card takes up any colour it wants, and that is the one tagging along with my self esteem. It takes up different roles, and plays them beautifully.

Hello there!